Why Can’t We All Get Along?

I started another (YES ANOTHER) blog.  This is the first post on it.  I really just can’t sit still anymore.  Also, behold the first blog post I’ve ever written that contains no profanity.  Now you know I mean serious business.

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I guess the reason I started this blog comes from the news that Rush Limbaugh was rushed to the hospital tonight with chest pains.  I  found this out on Twitter, which as you can imagine, is an infestation of everything wrong with the way we as humans think.  I was rather horrified to see people actually hopeful that this man would die.  Further, those who label themselves as conservatives or right-wing are taking the opportunity to generalize all those who may consider themselves liberals or left-wing.  WHY?

Because human beings, I have determined from 21 years of first hand research, are disgusting.

Seriously, let's all take a look at ourselves.  First we must categorize ourselves into completely ridiculous and arbitrary groups (conservative, liberal, religious, atheist, gay, straight, poor, rich).  Next, hate everyone who does not have the same views, ideas, and/or experiences as we do.  Bash the "other side" relentlessly.  And what does this accomplish?  Absolutely nothing.  This "us-against-them" game never ends.  Neither side will ever be able to get ahead, which in turn makes nothing change.

This is why I created this new blog.  I may only be 21, but I'm already sick of the way we think, particularly in America.  Seriously, try watching Congress or even one of the 24 hour news networks.  It's so reminiscent of high school it's not even funny.  Some of these people are 3 times older than I am and yet act less than half my age.  What happened to calmly discussing things like adults?  Cooperation?  Compromise?  Working together?  Respecting everyone around you just for being human, even if you didn't quite see eye to eye?  Maybe this never happened and I'm just ridiculously optimistic.

I honestly think we could change though.  With work and patience maybe we can start fixing things.  At this point, it's just me and a blog I've started out of anguish and frustration with the world, but I do hope there are others out there just as optimistic as I am.

The world just sucks right now.  I just see all of this fighting and bickering...and for what?  Nothing gets accomplished with screaming contests, insults, and violence.  At least, that's what I was taught in third grade. However, I don't see why that wouldn't work in the real world as well.  I have hope that we humans still have enough good in us to start viewing things in a different way.  Perhaps we'll learn that what we're doing isn't  working.  Perhaps not.

For now, all I can change is myself.  I'll be taking on the world though, one person at a time.  It's my 2010 resolution.  Game on.

Back at UMW.

And the place still fucking sucks. Seriously. The wonderful idiots at my college thought that, instead of using $5 million that was apparently just lying around for something that would actually help the university, its shittastic internet and barely edible food service, it buys a villa in Italy. SERIOUSLY, WHAT THE FUCK AM I PAYING FOR?! Clearly it's not for anything that's going to make my college experience better. Goddamn.

Regardless, my dorm and my room mate are awesome. Central air conditioning FTW. Plus my building is 100 years old. Living history, bitches. And my room is pretty big with lovely high ceilings.

So now I'm watching the Democratic convention, listening to Janis Joplin and procrastinating doing work (already, LOL). Basically I'm just waiting for Obama to speak, since I've missed every other part of the convention due to work. Might as well watch the last bit of it.

That's pretty much it. I'm too tired to write anything fascinating. LOL.

SERIOUSLY?!

http://uk.news.yahoo.com/afp/20080718/tuk-britain-police-crime-a7ad41d.html

Okay, seriously people. As a black person this absolutely disgusts me. If we want to get ahead and stop being seen as subhuman, STOP FUCKING ACTING LIKE A BUNCH OF ANIMALS. What the fuck is wrong with the black culture that makes this acceptable? Biting and attacking police officers because your fucktard ass didn't want to pick up your damn trash? You've got to be fucking kidding me. What the hell did MLK fight for and die for if this is how you're going to act?

It's upsetting for me because I try so hard to defeat these stereotypes and show that not all blacks are like that, and I know many other people who do the same. Then some group of fucktards comes along and pulls some shit like that, then wonder why racism is still so prevalent and holler about stereotyping. Act like the fucking human beings you're supposed to be and we might have a chance of getting rid of most of it. Goddamn.

And yes, I know part of it's the pack mentality mindset that all humans have, but seriously, this violent shit happens way too often in black communities. What is wrong with us?

I am having a shitty day.

So it's rainy and nasty outside, and I used to have 2 umbrellas. One got stolen at the dining hall, and another was snapped by a mean gust one wind. Therefore I trek to the bookstore this morning to pay TWENTY FUCKING DOLLARS FOR A GODDAMN UMBRELLA THAT FUCKING BREAKS 4 HOURS LATER.

I AM STEAMED.

I'm going back tomorrow and getting them to give me a new one or give me my money back. Goddamn thing broke when I was simply closing it! I mean, what the fuck?!

I guess I'm more pissed about my old one being stolen a couple of weeks ago, because that thing was awesome. And now I just have shittastic overpriced bullshit umbrellas that are broken. Ugh. I need to go to Target this weekend and get a new one.

My friends suck.

So. My personal life just took a turn for the shitastic.

Okay, so keeping people's names private, let's have Girl A and Girl B, and Guy. Guy and Girl A dated for quite some time. Guy dumped Girl A over the summer, for reasons she didn't understand, and has been upset over for a while now. She was finally starting to move on when it comes out that Guy cheated on Girl A with Girl B a week before he dumped her, and he and Girl B have been dating secretly ever since. Shit hit the fan yesterday when Girl A saw Guy rub Girl B's leg at dinner, and then she asked someone else after she'd left, and it was confirmed.

Right now I'm just pissed at the whole lot of them, and at those who are taking sides. It is not our battle to fight. I'm just annoyed because I've been in Girl A's place, and it seriously sucks balls, so I'm naturally going to be more sympathetic toward her, but I'm trying my best not to take sides. I'm just disgusted at everyone because those of us trying to remain neutral are stuck in a bad place, and those parties involved need to act like their fucking age and talk this shit out, because all it's doing is ruining the peace and calm that we've always had. We're fucking 19 and 20 years old, not 9 and 10 years old. Why can't we discuss things like the adults we are, figure this shit out like human beings so that we can get on with life? Is that so fucking hard to ask for? Apparently to the people I know, yes.

So yeah. I'm just a wreck right now because I'm sick as a dog, my period is particularly obnoxious this month (Tuesday I had cramps so bad I couldn't move), and I have multiple exams in my classes. I really didn't need this now. None of us did. And neither Jeff Buckley nor MST3K is making me feel better. Red alert, call in the troops...

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Jesus.

And by saying Jesus I mean, "Jesus keep me out of trouble." Because my Dad is getting on my last fucking nerves.

So, last night, as we were preparing to settle down for dinner, my mom and I were discussing how during the summer I'm hardly ever hungry. My dad takes the opportunity to say, "You should teach your mother that." Now, this doesn't seem too bad out of context, but you have to understand the situation in my household: My mother has been battling weight issues (and depression) for years. My dad, being the wonderful piece of work he is, has to remind my mom of her weight constantly. It is a tender subject for her, but he has to make comments about it pretty much every chance he gets.

So after over 18 years of it, I'm tired of him being so disrespectful to my mother. I tell him to stop making cheap shots on her. This erupts into an entire fight, in which my dad can't understand why my mother and I are so "oversensitive" and why what he's been saying to her is so wrong. Seriously. It's getting to be emotional abuse. You just don't pick on someone relentlessly about something like that. He wouldn't do it to his coworkers or anything like that, so why is he doing it to the woman he's been married to for 30 fucking years?!

I took my plate and ate my dinner in my room, mostly because if I stayed back there I was going to lob my plate in his face. Later, he came to give a half-assed apology and then said, "I don't like people telling me to shut up." Well, I don't like you, but I have to deal with you. o_O

Today, I'm still reeling from it. Just a few minutes ago, he acted like it's my fault the whole incident happened, like I'm just supposed to sit back and go, "Oh, it's normal for my father to pretty much abuse my mother with words! Pass the bread, please!" I've done that for too long. Honestly, he sat back there and told me that "If something's wrong you should say something to people before it explodes." Well, motherfucker, I fucking did you son-of-a-bitch. If there's one vital lesson I've learned at college, it's to fight as soon as I see something I think is wrong. And I'm sure as hell not going to let someone take cheap shots at the woman who lugged me around for 9 months before bringing me into this world.